Gah. Okay, I have been struggling with something over the past few weeks. Don't worry, it's nothing life-threatening...although it is to my blogland kind of. I was recently inspired by another honest post and decided that I just need to share it with all of you. I forget what started this, but something switched on in me that made me realize just how dangerous blogland can be, and since I've been posting pictures of my son on here and sharing our life it kind of made me think and rethink if I was being safe. It made me go through old posts and rewrite certain things that might have been too revealing. And I mean what is "too revealing?" I just want to make sure I keep my family and myself safe. These negative thoughts even made me delete quite a few old posts about my son. But then by doing that it made me rethink what I should be writing about, I mean if I don't want to have some posts about my son, then I can't really have a mommy blog can I? I don't know, I mean you can imagine all of these thoughts just circling around my head and not really knowing what to do with them.
I've thought about redesigning and even deleting this blog to start a new one. I love my blog and I love writing and I love blogland and all the new friends I've made. It's just when I have all of these feelings in the back of my mind it is really hard to write something from my heart when I'm not 100% confident in my blog as a whole. I'm finding it hard to write posts and organize my projects. My head is a mess right now, and when my insides are a mess, my outsides aren't very organized either. I'm not gonna delete my blog, but I think I'm definitely going to do some more thinking and redesigning. I'm not sure about making a huge portion of my blog about my son, that's why I haven't really been writing posts about him lately. I don't know, I'm just so confused because there are so many people out there that are confident in writing about their children or posting pictures of them. I don't know what made this click in me, but I know it's really bothering me. I'm hoping it will feel better once I get this off my chest. This negative energy is really bringing me down. I don't want to spread this negative energy anymore, so hopefully by writing this, someone else is getting some helpful inspiration out of this.
I know one thing for sure, I love blogland, I love having my own little Etsy shop, I love putting myself out there on the internet, just not necessarily my son. I'm hoping I'll get past this and find a happy middle in all of this. I already feel better about it. Something about writing your troubling thoughts out is truly therapeutic. I also find reading simple positive quotes helps so much.
Have you gone through these same feelings?
"Happiness is a state of mind, not a set of circumstances.
Today I can - and will - choose to be happy."
- Linda Picone
"Happiness is a state of mind, not a set of circumstances.
Today I can - and will - choose to be happy."
- Linda Picone
1 comment:
I've had these same thoughts, friend, and while I really want our blog to focus on our family (and that includes Maile), I make every effort to only mention places we visit that aren't at all near our home, or are places that anyone visiting Denver might go to. I would never say, name the park nearby, etc.
Whatever you decide to do, you know I'll be following along!
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